A note for mama!

Inspiration comes in many forms for many different people.  The one that inspires me is none other than my own flesh and blood; my mother. She has always been there for me. Even at the times I wish she wasn’t.  She has been through so much in her life, 2 marriages, 2 divorces and another failed relationship of 8 long years.  However, no matter how hard her life was she valiantly tried to never let it show how the strain affected her, but how keen the eyes and psyche of a child are.

We saw the drain on her when her marriages dissolved like sugar in water. We felt her pain when her relationship, to the man she thought was her soul mate, went up in a torrential fire storm.  Through it all she tried to shield us. Even when we hurled insults at her and shunned her she continued to bear the burden of caring for two young kids as a single parent.  She fought through all of her pain and angst, to ensure that we were provided for.  Years later I learned the reason why she remarried the second time; she did it to give my brother and I the stability she thought we needed and that she couldn’t provide by herself. What she didn’t realize was that we just needed her.  While our life was never easy, my brother and I never did without.

Now, a mother myself, I realize it’s because she sacrificed so much to give us what we needed.  She inspires me to follow my dreams and become whatever I want regardless of the obstacles. She inspired me to be the best mommy I can be to my son. One thing I am definitely sure of? If I can be a quarter of the mom she was to me and my brother; I have nothing to worry about. 

While she forgets her own self worth, her kids will never have any doubt what she is worth. In the eyes of her kids she is the epitome of perfection. Mark Twain said, “My mother had a slender, small body, but a large heart - a heart so large that everybody's joys found welcome in it, and hospitable accommodation."-a better description of my own mom could not be found. She is my best friend, my muse; my mom. She is our rock; her heart is our home